We pray that you will have peace of mind as you go through this period of doubt.

When we are surrounded by so many conflicting influences, it can become pretty difficult for anyone to think straight. Unfortunately, that is the nature of the world in which we live in today, which seemingly presents to us a multitude of choices. Some of us, are not able to cope with these conflicting influences, especially if we are not used to making our own choices. If you can imagine an electric circuit that has only the capacity to receive 50 megawatts of electricity, instead receives 100 megawatts, what would happen! Yet, as humans we do not consider that the effect that so many enticing influences can have on our psyche!

When we do not have inner resilience, we make ourselves vulnerable to many influences, and some of those influences can make us doubt. Usually we are not aware that it is happening, as we daily subject ourselves to those influences. If we are genuinely happy, when Ramadan is upon us, we are given the chance to shut down or reduce those surrounding influences. We can hear ourselves think, and we find ourselves more available to the additional acts of worship during Ramadan. It may even seem almost magical, but the reality is that we are less distracted, and therefore more focused. Then it all starts again after Ramadan because we become more distracted again.

With all of these influences calling for your attention, it can be difficult to stay in touch with one’s self. Day by day, without being aware of it, we are becoming like that electric circuit, overloaded! There is no safety switch to prevent overload, only attentiveness. When we are not attentive, the person who we think we are struggles against the person inside who has a growing doubt. The person inside of you is your lower self trying to get your attention, and the only way that lower self can do that is to make you question what has your attention.

If we look at Ramadan as an example of how we are when we are removed from the aspects of life that are not good for us, then we have a reminder of what we need to do to stay balanced. Dear brother, at this time in your life, you are going through a change, a change that is largely hormonal. You are struggling with those changes, along with what those changes bring. What you understood yesterday, now seems questionable. You might find you have an abundance of energy, and nowhere to direct that energy. You may find yourself to be suffocated by the environment that was so familiar to you, but now seems as if that environment does not have enough room for you. It is now, more than anytime in your life thus far that you need to maintain your balance.

These whispers could have more than one source, but regardless, the source and the result iare the same. What is important right now is that you do not lose sight of your Creator, and that it is to Him your focus is directed. Do not let slip your daily acts of worship because they not only keep you in touch with your Creator, but also keeps you in touch with yourself. As you go through these changes, as much as possible, pray five times daily with your heart. Instead of getting up straight away, stay in sujud (prostration), and speak to Him. Make du’aa’ for you and your loved ones. When possible help your mother and your family members in the home, fast on Mondays, and Thursdays for in this there are countless blessings. Do dhikr whether you are on a journey, at school, or waiting for a bus. If you cannot give charity, do something charitable. All of these acts are about maintaining your balance, maintaining your attention in the right direction, and protecting you against negative influences. 

Only if you pay attention to these whispers, whatever the source, will you give it power over you. On departing from your home in the mornings, recite Surat-ul Ikhlas, and on going to bed recite the 3 Quls (Surat-ul Falaq, Surat Ikhlas, and Surat ul Nas), and ayat-ul Kursi).

By preoccupying your mind, and you days in the right way, your struggle against these whispers can be waged and one insha-Allah. Maintain a healthy diet, eat lots of fresh unprocessed foods, drink lots of good water, and with each act, give to Allah (SWT), your love and gratitude from the heart. If you find that you have spare time on your hand, spend it increasing your faith and/or doing charitable deeds with a needy organization insha-Allah.  You are too young to be spendin too much by yourself, so try to get out and do a sport, join a male halaqa (study circle), visit relatives, and/or help complete some chore on behalf of a family member, which requires going on an errand.

For further guidance, please try the following link(s):
 Supplications to Overcome Doubts and Whisperings