Being
brought up in a Catholic Christian household I always felt the
importance of being in a religion, and respecting the will of
God. However even from an early age I sensed that the religion
I was brought up in was not quite what I expected. My earliest
memories bring me to a typical Sunday scene sitting in church
and looking around me, not digesting what the priest was
saying, and staring at a hall full of statues and paintings of
various “religious” scenes and persons.
I
always remember asking myself: can this be it? Is this the
truth? Can this massive symbol of a cross that everyone kneels
and bows to, be the true meaning of God? And can this priest
dressed in all his luxurious garments of silk and gold be the
essence of piety and humbleness and subservience to the Most
Divine?
Somehow
I felt inside me, that something wasn’t quite right. The
mere fact that Jesus (peace and blessings be upon him) was
given a godly status in the Christian religion instead of
being accepted as one of Allah’s Prophets made my stomach
twist and turn. It was something which I just could not
accept, and this was the first sign that made me understand
that I was no longer Christian, but something else.
After
just turning 18 I decided I would go to University and get a
degree, but at the same time, find the chance to get out of
the Christian household I was in, and find the peace and
freedom to do some soul searching! Indeed Allah blessed me
with this chance, since it proved to be the best decision I
made in my life.
Attending
university I came across many cultures and backgrounds, and
many people who would come in and out of my life who helped me
in my path. My first encounter with Islam was through
different Muslims from Saudi Arabia, Bahrain, Egypt, Pakistan,
Turkey, Italy, United Kingdom and many more countries. All
these friends in fact came into my life at the most
appropriate time, a time when I needed information about
religion.
But
I do remember an occasion in 2001 (which I think was my
first REAL introduction to Islam) when I visited a
friend and seeing for the first time the Qur'an standing directly
opposite me on a bookshelf. Just by looking at it, I got
this urge and curiosity to look and read what was inside.
Naturally
it was written in its original language, in Arabic, and I
couldn't understand a thing, but my friend began to calmly
explain what I was seeing! Was it a coincidence that most
people I came across were Muslims? I think NOT.
My
reversion to Islam happened quite gradually after that,
approximately 1 year later. I specifically remember saying to
myself one day just before the beginning of Ramadan in 2002 “Shall
I go to church today? Why should I go? Who am I kidding? I
don’t believe that Jesus (peace and blessings on him) is the
son of God, so why should I go to church. I am not going to
church to please my parents, nor am I going there to please
other Christians any more. I want a religion that pleases God
and is for God and only God. I want to thank God more than
once a week or twice a week for all the blessings I have. I
want to thank Him every day, 5 times or more if I can, not
every Sunday.” This on its own made me think, it made me
think that I was happy to believe in God as one complete
whole, not divided into three parts.
Reading
the Qur'an and the life of the Prophet (peace be upon him) I
came to realize that I did believe he was a messenger of God,
and in fact the last of God’s messengers. I also began to
pray at this time, and started my first fast ever that year in
Ramadan. After obtaining a lot of information about Islam
and asking all the questions I needed to know their answers; I
finally came into the world like a new-born child. What can
only be described as ‘LIGHT’ was suddenly shone upon me. I
decided when Ramadan had finished and we had celebrated `Eid that
there was no way I was going to be anything else BUT Muslim,
and that was my deciding moment.
After
so many years of being blind, and walking in the dark, one
day, Allah the Most Gracious Most Merciful shone the torch in
my eyes, and I woke up from the trance, from the illness, from
the blindness I was trapped in for so long.
My
reversion to Islam has let me be more peaceful as an
individual, I feel I make the correct Insha' Allah
decisions most of the time and above all I feel that I try to
live my life in light of Allah's wishes. What made me do it?
The
simple and so logical words. The clearest and most perfect
words that have ever reached human ears. “La ilaha il
Allah, Muhammed Rasoull Allah”. This sentence was the
defining moment in my life which made me become a Muslim, and
to this day, I have never looked back. Allah is One and Whole
and Perfect and Muhammad was His last Prophet.
The
Qur'an for me is like a manual, just like a car needs a manual
to function properly, the Holy Quran is the guide -book to
life, and something which covers All areas and is something
which we cannot live without.
I
am proud to be Cypriot and Muslim Alhamdullah. This is
not because I am proud of my ethnicity, but it is because
Allah’s power crosses barriers and reaches to all corners of
the globe. Living in the free part of Cyprus unfortunately
means access to Muslims, Islamic books and centers is sparse.
Does this discourage me? Not at all! In fact I love Islam more
every day because of it!
My
parents found out about my reversion to Islam during Ramadan
2005, and this was because I felt it was better to tell them
my news while I was near them and not away studying at
university.
I
felt that it was important to be around them when I delivered
this news, so that they knew I hadn't run away from them and
deserted them. In fact I wanted them to see me and how I had
become because of Islam, and to slowly In sha' Allah
enter the faith themselves by trying to set a good example.
My
father reacted very well to the news, and appreciates my views
as an individual and Al-hamdu lillah has shown
willingness to read some books about Islam; however my
mother's reaction was not as calm. I feel that this is more
because she is afraid for me, due to the fact that she knows
little about Islam, but Al-hamdu lillah we have also
began to talk about the faith and she also is becoming more
accepting.
After
I graduated from University with my undergraduate degree and Masters
Degree I am now working as a trainee in a large company
and feel that Allah has allowed me to make great progress as
an individual. If I could give any advice to anyone it would
be; “listen to your heart, listen to the signs, listen to
the words, LISTEN, the truth is there, embrace it, this life
is not forever.”