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I
was coming back from a long journey and Allah decreed that my seat in the
airplane should be beside a group of carefree young men whose loud laughter and
voices were excessive, and the air was filled with clouds of smoke from their
cigarettes. By the wisdom of Allah, the plane was completely full and I could
not change my seat.
I
tried to escape from the problem by sleeping but it was impossible. When I got
fed up with their noise, I took out my copy of the Qur’an, and started to read
what I could in a soft voice. Soon after that these young men started to become
quiet. Some of them started to read newspapers and others fell asleep.
Suddenly
one of them said in a loud voice, even though he was sitting right next to me,
“Enough! Enough!”
I
thought that I had disturbed him because my voice was too loud, so I apologized
to him and carried on reading in a whisper that only I could hear. I saw him
holding his head in his hands, then fidgeting in his seat, and moving a lot.
Then he raised his head and said to me angrily, “Please, stop it, I can’t
stand it!!”
Then
he got up from his seat and went away for a while, then he came back, greeted me
with salaams, and apologized. He fell silent and I did not know what was going
on. But after a while he turned to me with his eyes full of tears and said to me
in a whisper, “For three years or more I have not put my forehead on the
ground, and I have not read even one ayah!”
For
a whole month I have been on this trip, and there is no evil action that I did
not indulge in. Then I saw you reading Qur’an and my world turned black and my
heart was filled with despair. I felt as if someone was strangling me. I felt
every ayah that you read coming down on my body like a whip.
I
said to myself, “For how long will this negligence go on? Where will this path
lead you? What will happen after all this foolish play?” Then I went to the
washroom, do you know why?
I
had the strong urge to weep and I could not find anywhere else to hide from the
people’s sight!
I
spoke to him in general terms about repentance and turning back to Allah, then
he fell silent.
When
the plane landed he stopped me and it seemed that he wanted to keep away from
his companions. He asked me with a serious expression on his face, “Do you
think that Allah will accept my repentance?” I said, “If you are sincere and
serious in your repentance, then Allah will forgive all your sins.”
He
said, “But I have done terrible things, very terrible.”
I
said, “Have you not heard what Allah says: [Say:
O My servants! who have acted extravagantly against their own souls, do not
despair of the mercy of Allah; surely Allah forgives the faults altogether;
surely He is the Forgiving the Merciful?]
(Az-Zumar 39: 53)
I
saw him smiling with joy. His eyes filled with tears then he bade me farewell
and left.
No
matter how great a man's evil and sin, in his heart there is a seed of goodness.
If only we can reach it and make it grow, it will bear fruit in
sha’ Allah.
This
seed of goodness is always fighting in man's heart, even when it is covered with
layers of whims and desires. When Allah wills good for His slave, He causes the
light of guidance to shine in his heart and guides him to the path of those
who are guided. Allah says: [Therefore
(for) whomsoever Allah intends that He would guide him aright, He expands his
breast for Islam, and (for) whomsoever He intends that He should cause him to
err, He makes his breast strait and narrow as though he were ascending upwards;
thus does Allah lay uncleanness on those who do not believe.]
(Al-An`am 6: 125)
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Source:
From Al-Bayaan magazine, issue # 152, Rabee’ al-Aakhir 1421, pp.
66-67, http://members.cox.net/ameer1/lightgud.html
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